When I lived in Korea I would constantly be looking for places to visit and consistantly picked out some random place to go on some random day when I had nothing really to do. I mean, just wander around looking. Sometimes after work, on an earlier afternoon if it was nice out, I would just meander through my neighborhood for a few blocks peering into places. I would frequent this little office supplies store where there was all kinds of paper, notebooks, pens, markers, stickers, and I grabbed something just to feel creative and productive. There were a number of little coffee shops/cafes to stop in, and after a few months there I had no trouble just walking in somewhere on a whim.
That doesn' happen here and I wish I knew why. Granted, the walking isn't as convenient, but I know I'm more conscious and less impulsive. I have much more reserve here, in the place where I grew up than I have in foreign countries. I seemingly need so much more courage to do something spontaneous. I took the day off today with every intention of doing something I wouldn't get to do on a normal day and instead I wander around in stores I go to on a daily basis seeing nothing out of the ordinary. There are plenty of things here in St. Louis which I have yet to experience. I wanted a day of nonsense accompanied by a bit of inspiration. I didn't find it quite the way I wanted to, but the peace of a day off without commitments...
I've been feeling good lately. Overwhelmed with decisions to make, but good. Eating well, exercising a lot, reading, thinking, planning. The movie The Tree of Life has been playing frequently, some snippets over and over. That movie blows me away, making me realize the simplicity combined with the complexity of life.
Sometimes the world seems so small and at other times it feels huge.
"The nuns taught us there were two ways through life - the way of nature and the way of grace. You have to choose which one you'll follow. Grace doesn't try to please itself. Accepts being slighted, forgotten, disliked. Accepts insults and injuries. Nature only wants to please itself. Get others to please it too. Likes to lord it over them. To have its own way. It finds reasons to be unhappy when all the world is shining around it. And love is smiling through all things. The nuns taught us that no one who loves the way of grace ever comes to a bad end. I will be true to you. Whatever comes."
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I've been feeling good lately. Overwhelmed with decisions to make, but good. Eating well, exercising a lot, reading, thinking, planning. The movie The Tree of Life has been playing frequently, some snippets over and over. That movie blows me away, making me realize the simplicity combined with the complexity of life.
Sometimes the world seems so small and at other times it feels huge.
"The nuns taught us there were two ways through life - the way of nature and the way of grace. You have to choose which one you'll follow. Grace doesn't try to please itself. Accepts being slighted, forgotten, disliked. Accepts insults and injuries. Nature only wants to please itself. Get others to please it too. Likes to lord it over them. To have its own way. It finds reasons to be unhappy when all the world is shining around it. And love is smiling through all things. The nuns taught us that no one who loves the way of grace ever comes to a bad end. I will be true to you. Whatever comes."
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