I Am in Your Light

Never would I have imagined this seemingly coming full circle. I guess you could call this a circle; perhaps an ellipsee as it surrounds two focal points, or maybe just a curve because I still don't really know where this is going to take me. As much as I would like to have a plan, and often do with a lot of things, somethings I just ride out. I know I've been doing that with this job a little too long, but its also allowed me the chance to do some other incredible things. But now I've returned to Beasley, under completely different pretenses of course because I never would have agreed to it otherwise. Nope. No way would you have gotten back in that building working side-by-side with certain someone. Not that we ever worked side-by-side; she moreso loomed over me and then ducked when responsibility came looking for her.

❝ I don’t think that anything happens by coincidence. No one is here by accident. Everyone who crosses our path has a message for us. Otherwise they would have taken another path, or left earlier or later. The fact that these people are here means that they are here for some reason. ❞

JAMES REDFIELD, THE CELESTINE PROPHECY

At the time I was happy to leave, and I think I'm happy to be back. Wohlwend had become so frustrating it took away from what we were trying to invest in the kids. It didn't even feeling like investing anymore; it was just getting by, making do, showing up. I can't say this new gig is going to be any more rewarding, but much of the (pardon my language) bullshit within the actual building and classroom seems to be absent. I walked in a little nervous today, just because I thought there would be a possibility of let down.  Change can be hard, frightening. Leaving what you at least know, however frustrating and disheartening, is safe.  What if they don't take to me well or we don't mix? What if its crazy and I'm not equipped? What if no one cares or wants to help? There are so many things that can make the transition intimidating. But it can be so good, too, and bring so many things along with it.  In this case, peace. Its almost like I've been vindicated.